Am I Enough?

"They shall hunger no more, neither thirst anymore; the sun shall not strike them, nor any scorching heat." Revelation 7:16

"To be supplied when we hunger is the mercy of earth, never to hunger at all is the plenitude of heaven. God will so fill the souls of the redeemed that they shall have no longings; their longings shall be prevented by their constant satisfaction."                               Charles H. Spurgeon

Can you imagine? Think about that - in heaven we will be continuously filled by the Lamb of God and Living water will quench our thirst. The constant outpouring of these will be in abundance, and knowing this makes eternal life all the more desirous than before. In Heaven, God is enough to satisfy our desires. But the way I see it Heaven has already come to Earth. 

Instead of making New Year’s Resolutions every year, I ask Jesus what He wants for His birthday. It might sound foolish or maybe a little crazy, but why not? Some of the answers I’ve gotten have been: to trust Him more...make more time for be more available...submit to my husband. These requests have always made my relationship with God richer, deeper. They've caused me to look upward instead of inward because none of these could’ve happened if I didn’t submit to God first. This year when I asked Jesus what He wanted, the answer came in the form of a question, “Am I enough for you?” ‘Of course you are,’ was my automatic answer. Then the Lord forced me to look at unhealthy attitudes, strained relationships and even over-the-top emotions. The question came again, “Am I enough?” Tears started because I knew I wasn’t living as if He was.

"Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God."  2 Corinthians 3:5

Am I making God - the all-powerful, all knowing, ever present Creator and Savior of my soul -  enough in my life? That should be a done deal, right? But every time I choose to do something outside His will for me, I’m saying to Him, "I don’t trust You." Every time I grumble, every time I complain, every time I covet, every time I dig my heels in I’m limiting His involvement in my life. Prideful. I tell God I know better and His provisions are not enough. Every time I hold on to a bad attitude - anger, resentment, and sin - I’m saying I prefer my sin to His grace! Ouch! 

"Heaven shall exceed all the desires of God's people; they shall not even with their enlarged capacities be able to wish for anything which they do not already possess so that they shall hunger no more in the sense that they shall never long for more than they have."
C.H. Spurgeon

God brought Heaven to earth, reminding me of His grace. He knows the intent of my heart. He understands what it’s like to be tempted. He understands fear and tiredness. He understands our humanity and, because He does, He is not an unfeeling god made with human hands. No, He is God who made us with His hands and breathed life into us. Everything we need or want is in Him – made by Him!

That makes Him enough. 

"But He has said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you (My loving kindness and My mercy are more than enough - always available - regardless of the situation); for (My) power is being perfected (and is completed and shows itself most effectively) in (your) weakness. Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses so that the power of Christ (may completely enfold me and) may dwell in me."    2 Corinthians 12:9 Amplified Bible

If God is enough here on earth, I am all the more looking forward to the completeness of Heaven. 

by Eve Montano